I wish

I wish that I was still happily married.
I wish that I had been intelligent enough to stop myself from making stupid decisions.
I wish that I had never gotten into half of the messes that I have.
I wish that I could go back in time
I wish that I had stronger faith in God.
I wish that I could vanish and take my kids into a whole new world with me.
I wish that life were easier.
I wish that I had an easier time putting the really important stuff into perspective.
I wish that this knot in my stomach would just go away.
I wish that I had never met the people making my life so very miserable.
I wish that everything had a reverse button on it.
I wish that all of these wishes could actually come true!

I pray that God is hearing my prayers tonight and taking pity on me and using his hand to help me.

It has ONLY been 8 months!!

Well, at least it wasn't a year! The inspiration for a post after 8 months, you ask? Well, Christmas of course! This year Christmas is going to be just a little different. Money is tighter, living arrangements are changing and I just have some darn good ideas. Of course, some things will be bought from the store, you can't really avoid that. So here are my ideas, and for some reason I have an easier time coming up with things for Princess than I do Dino.

1. Vanity for Princess~ I have an old telephone table and my plan is to paint it and put some decorative fabric around the edge, then get a little mirror and foot stool to go with it. She is dying for some make-up and this seems like something good to go with it.

2. Quilts~ I am *hoping* to make a quilt for both of the kids. However, this tends to be time consuming, so I really have to be dedicated to get this done!

3. Some homemade art supplies~ think homemade moon sand (that isn't toxic!), homemade finger paint, crayon rolls, etc...

4. Baby doll accessories~ I have some cute ideas to make a "wipes" holder, baby doll cloth diapers, burp cloths, clothes.

5. An art table to go with the art supplies~ I have another table that would be perfect to redo as an art table for the kids, a little paint, add some boxes and wallah, you have yourself an art table!


Well that is all I have for now, I am going to post pictures and add to the ideas as I finish and think up new things! If you have any ideas to share please do, I need ideas for everyone too, not just the kids. My mom is hoping to not get another macaroni noodle frame again this year!

The B-L-I-N-E

Today when I picked my sweet princess up from preschool, she was absolutely glowing. You see she had learned a new song and just couldn't wait to share it with me! Once we get in the car I ask her if she wants to sing her song to me; of course she said "yes". And this is the song:

"The B-L-I-N-E, yes that's the word for meeeeeeee,
I stand and spin in the world with God
The B-L-I-N-Eeeeeeeee!"

She was so proud of her newly learned song! I though it was precious. It is hilarious what comes out of the mouths' of three year olds. Her favorite phrase is "Mommy, it's not cooperating!" and she also has started speaking a lot of Spanish! We have put her in a Spanish class, so between that and Dora she is doing great!! I can not believe how big she is getting, at least for now she is still sweet and loves me ;)

We will survive

Breathing treatments, broken thumb
Steroids make us crazy
Tylenol with Codeine takes the pain away
But still won't let us touch it.
Mommy's spent and Daddy's gone,
Just want this day to end
So tomorrow we can start again.

It has been a long week of viral pneumonia for the boy topped off with a broken thumb and stitches for the princess. She was injured at HER birthday party. We are weary and in need of prayer, but with His grace we will make it!

Little Man's First Birthday!

Arrggh, Matey

Favors, they were too cute. I spray painted wooden chests, glued the little ornaments to the top and filled them with gingerbread cookie "coins" that I made!

Enjoying his first taste of cake!

Mommy and the birthday boy

The oh, so yummy cake mmmmmm...

Getting his very first haircut the morning of his birthday. He did SO good.

Last picture with his "baby" hair.

Well, we made it to 1. Little man had a wonderful party, so many friends and family showed up to help celebrate with us. We did a pirate theme for his party and I must say that everything went incredibly smooth. He loved the cake, but he wasn't much interested in the gifts! We got him a little tricycle and he sat in it the entire time we were opening gifts. Big sister was a big help when it came to unwrapping... she is an old pro now. Speaking of big sis, we have her birthday to celebrate in just two short weeks! Whew, we are going to be present and partied out! Enjoy the pictures!

My Baby is Getting Big

My little buddy will be a year old on Saturday. He still seems like such a little guy, I can not believe that he has been around for an entire year. He has brought this little family unimaginable joy. I never knew how much fun a little boy could be and always thought that I wanted a family full of girls, now I can't even fathom life without my little man. He is my little cuddle bug and loves his mommy so much. In the last few months, however, Daddy has been the one he wants when it is time to go to bed. It is so sweet to see the little man light up when his Daddy walks through the door at night. He loves to eat too, since starting him on table food, he has become a little bottomless pit. He has always been a good nurser and any ideas I had about weaning at a year have been quickly abolished by his insistence on continuing. Seeing as how I am wrapped around his itty bitty finger, I am in no position to protest. Buddy still has not started to walk, but crawls and climbs with the best of them. He loves to get into things and has the curiosity of the most curious of cats. He is the happiest little guy and loves to tag along with his older sister (much to her dismay). He has 6 teeth now and has only tested them out on me one time! I am anxiously awaiting what the next year will bring with this handsome little blessing. As we leave the baby stage for the toddler stage, I find myself longing to get those moments back and starting to think about baby #3..................

At the Holidays I Just Want to be Normal

Hi world, it's been a while, but we have been BUSY. BUSY, BUSY!!! I can not believe that the holidays are almost here, it is crazy. Every year at this time, my job makes me sad, because I know at some point I am going to be pulled away from my family to go to work. Every year around October, I get this feeling in the pit of my stomach as I wait for the holiday schedule to come out. Before children it was sad, with children it is almost unbearable. This is hopefully my last year on night shift, which as far is working holidays is actually a little better than days. At least if you are working a night you are home for part of the holiday.
This year is not to terrible, I am working the night before Thanksgiving, which means I will be tired and most likely cranky on Thanksgiving day. And I am scheduled to make the turkey. I still do not know exactly what our plans are going to be, but I foresee having to run from house to house to cover all of the families. I am also working Christmas Day night and that is better than Christmas Eve, my heart would absolutely break if I couldn't be here to see my children come down stairs and see what Santa Claus left for them. Then I work New Years Eve night, which now that I do have kids, I no longer count as a holiday. Since our daughter was born 3 years ago on December 30th, we are usually in bed by 10 on New Years Eve. However, it is historically a crazy busy night for us mother baby nurses because everyone wants that baby out before the 1st for a tax deduction.
So that is my plight of the holidays. It could be worse. Soon I will hopefully post more about what we have been up to but I am headed to work and my daughter wants to have a "pigwit" or picnic.